Anxiety & depression/ Joy & Peace- One Cure.


Feelings of abandonment and rejection;

starved of affection, seeking attention, striving for perfection.

“I will never fail you. I will never abandon you.” (Heb. 13:5)

“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”(2 Cor. 12:9)

Dwelling on His promises, the lies begin to cease.

Crippled by fear.

“Don’t be afraid, for I am with you.  Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand”.–Isaiah 41:10

Alone, unworthy, a mistake – words spoken over your life.

“You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion,

    as I was woven together in the dark of the womb.

You saw me before I was born.

    Every day of my life was recorded in your book.

Every moment was laid out

    before a single day had passed.

How precious are your thoughts about me, O God.

They cannot be numbered!” (Psalm 139:15-17)

If you are breathing; whether your are a follower of Christ or don’t believe in Him at all; He has made you specifically, intricately, and uniquely to fulfill a specific plan and purpose He has designed for you explicitly.

Your parents may or may not have planned you,

However, God did.

It is you; He is, has, and will continue to pursue.

The opposite of depression,


The opposite of anxiety and fear,


The opposite of feeling worthless,

knowing how much you are loved.

We all crave peace, joy, and love.

Stop looking for a feeling, look for a Person; God.

God is Joy.

God is Peace.

God is Love.

There is great truth in the infamous saying “you become who you hang out with.” The more you hang out with God; spend time in His Word and His presence- the more like Him you become. When you become like Him you begin to take on His character. Very soon the fear, anxiety, depression, and unworthiness is replaced with your true identity which is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness. (Gal. 5:22)

This is the abundant life, this is the life you were created to live.




Gods grace

The picture to the left was taken almost exactly two years ago. The Lord can truly transform your life inside and out, if you allow Him too.
I allowed events in my life that I had no control over, dictate every choice I made. Instead of trusting God, I became addicted to any and every kind of escape; all which left me empty and unsatisfied. Unfortunately I had to hit rock bottom, I had nowhere else to look but up. The second I admitted I couldn’t do it on my own and reached out for help; God not only held my hand but lifted me out of my chaotic mess. It wasn’t easy and I had to make drastic changes, but God was ever so present and faithful in and through it all. You don’t have to get your life together before you come to the Lord. He meets you exactly where you’re at; picks you up and begins to transform you into the man/ woman He intended you to be. Radical transformation is only feasible through the powerful redeeming grace and love of Jesus Christ. Accept the free gift of grace and you will embark on a journey full of joy, freedom, and purpose. His grace is unchanging and available to everyone. “While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.” (Romans 5:8) You can’t out sin the cross. God isn’t mad at you. He’s waiting to sweep you off your feet and replace your broken life of complacency to a full life of abundance. Transformation doesn’t take place overnight; it is a process that requires self-abandonment and faith. When you place your life into the loving and able hands of the One who created you; rest assured, nothing but beauty and joy will come forth. #2Corinthians5:17

March 27, 2013 / Freedom over Bondage


I will wake up every day prepared to fight,

Because I long to be your shining light.

I’m tired of trying to control my life,

It never leaves me satisfied but consumes me with strife.

The chains are broken, and I’m ready to run your race,

I won’t stop until I see your beautiful face.

There is freedom in your name,

You are the ultimate healer of all my hurt and pain.

Because of your unending grace,

I no longer have to hold all these weights.

You knew every sin I was going to commit,

Yet, you paid the price for my benefit.

My life will bring you glory,

I will tell the world of your unending grace by sharing my life’s story.

In you I will find my comfort, love, and identity,

You are my creator and I am your Destiny.

Today, I chose to be free.


My First Love

Jesus you have my heart

Without you my life would fall apart

I keep my eyes fixed on your face

I need you to help me finish this race

You are all I need

Because of your grace, my future is guaranteed

I need you more

Lord help me overcome this spiritual war

Your presence fills my heart with joy

Something the devil could never destroy

You’ve given my life meaning

I need you to constantly be intervening

Relentlessy Pursued

I come before you with a thankful heart,

Your gracious hand upon my life is a beautiful work of art.

From the beginning you loved me so much to take me out of a potentially harmful situation,

You chose me because of your immense love, not out of obligation as if I was a burden.

You relentlessly pursued me even at the depth of my despair,

Every tear I cried you have collected because you care.

I give you all my fears,

I have allowed them to dictate my life for the past twenty years.

I long to be free in every aspect of my life.

I desire to be a healthy, loving, gentle, kind, and tender-hearted wife.

Thank you for reminding me of the promise you made,

Your promises do not waver nor fade.

I give you all of my broken pieces.

I am grateful the areas I am weak, your strength increases.

I see a little girl holding a few puzzle pieces to a massive incomplete puzzle.

She’s sitting there upset, frustrated, and tearful.

You walk up and say “let go,

You can trust me, I will show you where these go.”

As she relinquishes the pieces she was holding on to so tightly

She feels a sense of peace; a relief of anxiety.

He places the pieces in their intended place,

As He looks at her with a smile full of grace.

He wasn’t mad at her for trying to figure it out on her own,

He relentlessly pursued her until she realized she wasn’t alone.

This the God I serve.

The highest praise and honor does He deserve.

Placed on the highest throne.

Yet He seeks after His lost children to bring them home.






Ephesians 4:31-32

“let go and let God” a common Christian expression,

When embraced has the capability of relieving much anxiety and depression.

We often think we give God our situation,

Yet we continue with the same perception.

Half way releasing, isn’t letting go,

Because you still remain in control.

Relinquishing the circumstance is easy; surrendering the emotion evoked is tough,

Yet God can see right through your bluff.

“Let all bitterness and wrath and anger and clamor and slander be put away from you, along with all malice.”

Allowing your human emotion take control will leave you heart callused.

Instead Peter says, “ Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you.”

After all, love should be what we aim to pursue.

Authenticity in Community

What if “how are you” wasn’t just a greeting?

We wouldn’t wait to open up to one another until the next prayer meeting?

What if we pulled back the curtains?

& actually started to carry each other’s burdens?

What if we listened more than we spoke?

& stopped using each other as a punch line in a joke?

What if we stopped allowing gossip?

& focused on building each other up?

What if we pursued people like we pursue our call?

We wouldn’t allow one another to withdraw?

What if we died to our pride and learned how to forgive?

& love was our only motive?

What if we saw Life as a privilege?

& spoke positively about our college?

What if we stopped taking pride in being busy?

Instead slowed down and cared about people sincerely?

What if we were actually willing to be real?

& allowed our wounds to heal?

What if we became a community based on transparency?

Then we could really be a family.