Relentlessy Pursued

I come before you with a thankful heart,

Your gracious hand upon my life is a beautiful work of art.

From the beginning you loved me so much to take me out of a potentially harmful situation,

You chose me because of your immense love, not out of obligation as if I was a burden.

You relentlessly pursued me even at the depth of my despair,

Every tear I cried you have collected because you care.

I give you all my fears,

I have allowed them to dictate my life for the past twenty years.

I long to be free in every aspect of my life.

I desire to be a healthy, loving, gentle, kind, and tender-hearted wife.

Thank you for reminding me of the promise you made,

Your promises do not waver nor fade.

I give you all of my broken pieces.

I am grateful the areas I am weak, your strength increases.

I see a little girl holding a few puzzle pieces to a massive incomplete puzzle.

She’s sitting there upset, frustrated, and tearful.

You walk up and say “let go,

You can trust me, I will show you where these go.”

As she relinquishes the pieces she was holding on to so tightly

She feels a sense of peace; a relief of anxiety.

He places the pieces in their intended place,

As He looks at her with a smile full of grace.

He wasn’t mad at her for trying to figure it out on her own,

He relentlessly pursued her until she realized she wasn’t alone.

This the God I serve.

The highest praise and honor does He deserve.

Placed on the highest throne.

Yet He seeks after His lost children to bring them home.

 

 

 

 

 

Ephesians 4:31-32

“let go and let God” a common Christian expression,

When embraced has the capability of relieving much anxiety and depression.

We often think we give God our situation,

Yet we continue with the same perception.

Half way releasing, isn’t letting go,

Because you still remain in control.

Relinquishing the circumstance is easy; surrendering the emotion evoked is tough,

Yet God can see right through your bluff.

“Let all bitterness and wrath and anger and clamor and slander be put away from you, along with all malice.”

Allowing your human emotion take control will leave you heart callused.

Instead Peter says, “ Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one another, as God in Christ forgave you.”

After all, love should be what we aim to pursue.

Authenticity in Community

What if “how are you” wasn’t just a greeting?

We wouldn’t wait to open up to one another until the next prayer meeting?

What if we pulled back the curtains?

& actually started to carry each other’s burdens?

What if we listened more than we spoke?

& stopped using each other as a punch line in a joke?

What if we stopped allowing gossip?

& focused on building each other up?

What if we pursued people like we pursue our call?

We wouldn’t allow one another to withdraw?

What if we died to our pride and learned how to forgive?

& love was our only motive?

What if we saw Life as a privilege?

& spoke positively about our college?

What if we stopped taking pride in being busy?

Instead slowed down and cared about people sincerely?

What if we were actually willing to be real?

& allowed our wounds to heal?

What if we became a community based on transparency?

Then we could really be a family.

April 3, 2013

Emotionally disconnected,

your left feeling worthless and rejected.

Pushing everyone you love away,

because you’re afraid they won’t stay.

Allowing your past to dictate your present,

always asking yourself “why is life so unpleasant?”

You know there is a God,

but you won’t drop the façade.

So much hurt and pain you’ve never had control of,

& deep down the only thing you want is love.

You’re waiting for anyone to climb over the wall you’ve built up so high,

you realize all the wall has done was left you alone and you begin to cry,

Screaming out “God why?

Nobody would even care if I were to die”

But those are lies from the enemy.

Thankfully, I know a man who loves to set captives free.

If this is you,

 there is hope, you can be made new.

The same God that you know exists,

is standing in your midst.

Drop the mask; it’s time to be real

All the pain you feel, He will begin to heal

& you will no longer feel like a hamster on a wheel.

He has an amazing purpose and plan,

He knew you before the world even began.

Nothing you could ever say or do would make God love you less,

your life will no longer be a chaotic mess.

It’s not too late,

He’s been waiting, don’t hesitate.

Freedom can start today,

don’t allow another day to pass away.

 

April 2, 2013

Feelings are quite deceiving,

they are the reason most people stop believing.

There is only one thing in this world that stays consistent,

even though we may feel He’s distant.

God’s love for us is never ending,

our hearts He’s always mending.

His promises remain true,

“I will never leave nor forsake you.”

When everyone will let you down,

look to the one with the thorn filled crown.

If we let our feelings dictate our paths,

all we will experience is chaos and wrath.

But if we let God direct each step we take,

when obstacles come your way, you will not bend or break. 

We aren’t always going feel as if we are on a mountain peak,

because we are merely human and weak.

But in our weakness His power is made perfect and complete,

the last thing we should do is fleet.

Instead pray.

Tell Him everything you are feeling, He already knows what you are going to say.

He will put your feelings into perspective,

I am so thankful He uses the faulty to still be effective.

March 29, 2013 (Good Friday)

John 3:16,

Sets up the scene.

 

He gave His most precious gift, His son,

& because of that great sacrifice, the war was won.

 

The cross is the ultimate sign of submission,

He died the most painful death in order to fulfill His father’s mission.

 

Why is it that we feel like a waste of life?

God endured so much pain and strife!

 

He died the most excruciating death,

Thinking about his precious children with every last breathe.

 

“But He was pierced for our rebellion, crushed for our sins, He was beaten so we could be whole, He was whipped so we could be healed” Hebrews 53:5,

He did all this with love, in order for us to be alive.

 

It was through the blood of Christ,

& His sacrifice.

 

That we are now free from condemnation,

He died for all of creation.

 

Stop feeling guilty for the things you have done,

That is why God sacrificed His son.

 

When He said “It is finished,”

All of the sins you have committed and have yet to commit, were then diminished.

 

See God knew the mistakes you were going to make,

But He still died for your sake.

 

Your life is worth living,

Because it was bought from a King who gave His everything.

March 28, 2013

You are exactly where you are supposed to be,

It is time to be completely set free.

 

Being here does not mean you have been defeated,

Your past has been deleted.

 

Stop holding onto the mistakes you have made,

The cost of your sins have already been paid.

 

God see’s your heart as perfect and pure,

In Him you are completely secure.

 

Therapy is a stop in your journey, not a destination,

It’s a part of the process to your transformation.

 

You’re running from the very person that has everything you are looking for,

He’s knocking; all you have to do is open the door.

 

God is saying “Let me in and I will make your broken heart whole,”

But this is all something only you can control.

 

Because freedom is a choice you can make

& I promise you all of this is not a mistake

 

God is going to use everything you have gone through to glorify His name

Through sharing your testimony, you will bring Him fame

 

Your story is not something to be ashamed of

It is a powerful display of God’s mercy, grace, and love

 

He has set you apart for a greater purpose and plan

Turn around and you will fall right into your Father’s hand

 

I know it’s hard to see now, but in all this darkness there is light

Wake up every morning determined to fight

 

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest” – Matthew 11:23

It is time to allow God to set you free